OldSchool1 said:
My condolenses.
May you celebrate her life and not morn her death.
Thank you. I feel a measure of sadness, sure. But right now, I am just concerned with Jodee and her family. My grief is more in that I didn't get to know her better... it's more a grief of regret, and less a grief of loss. Jodee and I have been married for 5 1/2 years (and together for a total of 6 1/2 years) and in that time, I have probably seen Grandma Barb only 10 times, maybe. Jodee's family isn't closely knit like my family is. But still, this is tearing Jodee up. She and her grandma were close once. They never had a falling out per se, just more of a drifting away. but now it's too late to do anything about it. My role in this is to be a rock for Jodee and to an extent, to the rest of her family. I will be a pall-bearer, but that's an honor, not a burden to me.
But now that the get together is over tonight, I can say it went alright... totally not according to plan, but alright. Jodee and her sisters all fell asleep about 11 (I woke them up for midnight then let them go back to sleep after resolutions) and then company left about 1:00. Nobody got really drunk. I drank the most, and I've still got my wits about me. I only had like 3 Rum and Cokes over the course of the whole night. But that's better I suppose. I'm not much of a drinker these days anyway. I started drinking at 20 (later than most, but earlier than uncle sam would've wanted.) and from 20 til about 23, it was great fun and I did it alot, but now, at 24 going on 25, the desire has faded quite a bit, and so I seldomly drink.. That's a good thing too. And besides, if less was consumed tonight, then that means more can be consumed in the future. And that means reduced odds of waking with a hangover, and a milder hangover if I do.
But thanks for your concern. I'm alright. I just want to see the girls through it. I hope everything went great for your new year... can you believe there will never be another 2004. It's slipped behind the rose colored glass wall, and will slowly turn to stone then fade away... it's lost to us except for our memories and our trinkets from it. It's a bittersweet thought and I feel it each new year. Sure, it's the start of a whole new year full of promises and opportunities, but it's one more gone, it's having to say goodbye forever to something that enveloped us for an entire 12 months. It's syonara (spelled right?) to something that consumed our whole lives for a whole year..... I don't know... perhaps I think too much...
Well, anyways... happy new year!! 2005!! Woohoo!